Fitness

Fitness Friday: A Progress Report

December 4, 2015

Hey! Happy Friday! How was everyone’s week? Mine was fairly low key which is just fine with me. I did take Liam to see a live nativity pageant last night which he really loved, mostly for the donkey and sheep. I’m telling you though, the Christmas spirit is strong with us.

I wanted to use today’s post as a bit of a progress report. I won’t deny that since having a baby, I haven’t loved my body. I tried hard to feel pride over all of the amazing things this body of mine is capable of but when I looked in the mirror, I was unhappy. I was (and still partially am) holding on to my pre-pregnancy body. The body that was a size 4, with muscle definition and visible abs. That body did Crossfit, yoga, ran and more almost every day of the week, while eating a pretty strict, clean diet.

The body I have now is a size 10/12 with no abs in sight. The body I have now is limited to 30 minute home workouts when life permits, with limited equipment to work with and a much less perfect diet. The body I have now has wider hips and wider ribs that may never narrow and that dreaded ‘mom tummy’ that I don’t know how to deal with. I hated it.

After three years, I’m slowly coming around to my new body.

I recognized some time ago that I needed some help with accepting and loving my body. I know that pre-pregnancy, even with that rocking bod, I didn’t fully love my body. I actually didn’t realize how good I looked back then, until after having a baby and looking back on old photos. I was scared that I had some form of body dysmorphia and that I may never be happy with what I saw in the mirror. I slugged through half-assed workouts and made mostly healthy choices, but nothing really seemed to help me feel better about my body image.

Thankfully the universe sent me that message to start being kinder. I knew that practicing kindness towards my physical self would ultimately play an important part of accepting my post-pregnancy body and have been making a strong effort to practice kindness every day for the past couple months.

After committing to a round of 21 Day Fix, staying on top of my workouts and committing to eating clean, I saw some visible results. I lost a few inches, I was less bloated and I felt pretty damn good, but I still wasn’t totally happy with the body I saw in the mirror. I had some good days but I still had a lot of bad days. I’ve just recently completed a round of 21 Day Fix Extreme and am starting another round with a challenge group led by Amie. I decided for this round I would actually take and share some ‘before’ photos, knowing I likely wouldn’t get any drastic results being in the middle of the holiday season. I’d previously avoided taking progress photos for my own reference because I just didn’t want to see what I truly looked like and am not sure what compelled me to go for it this time.

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I was surprised to look at the photos and not actually hate them. I suddenly didn’t feel gross and actually thought, “hey, I actually look pretty damn good!”.

Looking at these photos and not immediately feeling awful actually motivates me to continue showing up for my workouts and pushing myself but not beating myself up if I miss a workout. I am more encouraged to keep my diet clean and choose to not to indulge in my favourite beer and snacks as often, but not denying myself a treat here and there. I am actually excited that I’m not that far away from starting to see some real muscle definition and feeling like that real badass fit chick that I used to be.

The biggest lesson I learned wasn’t that I need to burn myself out working out all night to make progress, because I don’t. The biggest lesson wasn’t that I need to stay 100% focused on my diet to get good results, even though it plays a pretty big part. The biggest lesson I learned is to simply be kinder to myself, always.

Workouts this week:
Sunday
3 mile treadmill run
10 Minute Hardcore Abs

Monday
Kill Cupcake via Beachbody On Demand

Tuesday
Upper Body Fix

Wednesday
Lower Body Fix

Thursday
Total Body Chisel – Hammer & Chisel preview via Beachbody On Demand

Friday
Off for a Christmas party!

I have a busy weekend ahead with my department Christmas party tonight, Liam’s last swimming lesson of this session, a birthday party, and the usual weekend cleaning/laundry/groceries. Hope you all have a great weekend and see you on Sunday Runday!

 

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25 Comments

  • Reply
    jen @nutcaseinpoint
    December 4, 2015 at 6:54 am

    Love this! You go girl (too cliche? I said it anyways;) )

    • Reply
      Becky
      December 4, 2015 at 7:32 am

      Haha thank you!

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    Lindsey
    December 4, 2015 at 7:20 am

    You look great Becky! You are very right being kind and accepting to/of ourselves is #1. Nobody is perfect when it comes to eating or working out, and doing your best is all you can do. It’s never worth stressing out over that cookie you are or a missed workout. In excited to see your after photos. I’m gong to commit to at least one round of Fix Extreme after baby 🙂

    • Reply
      Becky
      December 4, 2015 at 5:00 pm

      Thank you! It’s funny how easy it is to forget to be kind to yourself. And forgetting that clothes sizes and weight are just number, they don’t define your healthy.

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    Alycia
    December 4, 2015 at 7:23 am

    Love this, be kinder to yourself. This pregnancy I didn’t work out much, didn’t eat like I should, and gained more than I did with Palmer. I’m the same as you in that before I had a baby, I was the fittest I had ever been. Toned arms, toned abs….I too, need to learn to be kind to myself, and really realize when my body can do. It grew 2 sweet babes, and one day, I will get it to a place I am happy with!

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      Becky
      December 4, 2015 at 7:33 am

      Yes it’s definitely hard getting on board with all of the changes bring with pregnancy, especially when you’re not one of those lucky women that just snaps back like nothing happened. But it’s ok to be different and that’s something most women need to remember. You already look fantastic after Charlie and I’m sure it won’t be long to get you back to your fit self.

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    Kris @ Canadian Girl Runs
    December 4, 2015 at 8:45 am

    Love this Becky <3 You are flipping gorgeous and I know how hard you work day in and day out. I think accepting your body and having confidence is one of the hardest parts in life, especially for women. You are amazing girl!

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      Becky
      December 4, 2015 at 5:03 pm

      Thank you so much Kris <3

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    Jo @ Living Mint Green
    December 4, 2015 at 9:10 am

    It’s true, we’re our own worst critic. As I was reading this, I was like, “What?! What doesn’t she like?” because, from what I recall, you look like a gorgeous human being.
    I’m so happy to be part of your fitness/blogger tribe! 🙂

    Ps. tell me more about your lovely blue crops. Lulu? (Do I even need to ask?)

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      Becky
      December 4, 2015 at 5:03 pm

      Thank you! It’s definitely hard when you have a skewed view of yourself but I’m glad I’m coming around to see what everyone else sees of me!

      My crops and bra are both from Fabletics actually!

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    Kaella On The Run
    December 4, 2015 at 10:08 am

    You’re gorgeous and look amazing!! It can take a lot for us to “feel” amazing sometimes though! I’m glad you’re starting to feel just as great as you look!! xxx

    • Reply
      Becky
      December 4, 2015 at 5:02 pm

      Yes, it’s hard to see what everyone else sees and actually believe it when someone says you look good!

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    Sarah
    December 4, 2015 at 10:17 am

    Yes Ma’am you’ve got it nailed now. Once you are in a good place with yourself, you will find yourself enjoying new activities (or old ones) instead of feeling like they are a chore. You might find yourself having fun in the kitchen experimenting with meals and snacks that make you FEEL good and give you good energy to do those activities you are liking so much. You will jump out of bed to get to your run, because dammit you like to run. And you will turn your nose up at chips and sugary snacks (period time not included) because you find you don’t FEEL as good when you eat them! And the liberating thing is that simply being in a place where your choices are based on how you feel and what you feel like doing, and not on how they affect (or don’t affect) your appearance, instantly makes you like your appearance more.

    I have ALWAYS found you beautiful Becky, and I am happy to see that you are starting to see that in yourself as well.

    • Reply
      Becky
      December 4, 2015 at 5:01 pm

      Thank you Sarah, your words couldn’t be more true. I admire you and your dedication to early morning workouts <3

  • Reply
    Leigh
    December 4, 2015 at 7:29 pm

    i loved this post! I think it’s so easy to be hard on ourselves especially after having a baby. You have a pretty rockin’ bod lady!

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      Becky
      December 7, 2015 at 5:56 pm

      Thank you! <3

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    Tawnya Faust
    December 5, 2015 at 10:38 am

    Becky, I love this message and I’m so thankful that you’re practicing being kind to yourself. It’s SO hard, trust me being 5 days post partum I have all those feelings that I did after last pregnancy only this time I’ma already seeing that the second pregnancy is not as easy on your body as the first and it’s going to take a lot more work this time to get to where I want to be. I think it’s so important to share not only the good images of our bodies but the imperfect ones as well 🙂

    I think you look pretty great but it’s awesome that you’re challenging yourself and showing the ‘before’ pics! Good luck with the new program! XO

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      Becky
      December 7, 2015 at 5:58 pm

      Thank you Tawnya. This whole self love journey has been a tough one but I’m so thankful for all of the kind words and support from everyone!

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    Brie @ A Slice of Brie
    December 6, 2015 at 10:10 pm

    We definitely are our own worst critics, and I agree, we often don’t realize how good we looked at a particular time until we look back…which is kind of sad because does that mean we will never enjoy the body we have no matter how good of shape it’s in? Your raise some good points and “food for thought” on this…being kind to ourselves and our bodies is so important. I’m so glad you’re making the connection and I’m so proud of you for how committed and strong you’ve been these past few months! I think you look great, but I know we don’t always see what others see (which is also too bad!). Keep up the good work! I’m glad to have you as a role model and motivator. Xoxo

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      Becky
      December 7, 2015 at 5:55 pm

      Yes!! That is my biggest fear is that I will never enjoy my body no matter what and I want to work really hard to change that outlook.

      Thank you for being my support through this journey too. I honestly don’t know if I could grow like this without all my tribe <3

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    allison
    December 7, 2015 at 11:51 am

    you are looking gorgeous! though, I completely agree, being kinder to yourself is the biggest benefit of being happy with what you have and not beating yourself up if you don’t think it’s perfect. You are a strong, confident, kind mom to a well rounded, sweet little boy and (in my opinion) that (and cake) are better than size 4 jeans.

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    Amie
    December 13, 2015 at 7:24 pm

    You are such a beautiful soul inside and out and I’m so grateful to be your friend ? I know you’ve not had a great week with a sick kiddo and being sick yourself. Don’t beat yourself up, and get lots of rest. Hope your feeling better soon!

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      Becky
      December 13, 2015 at 7:40 pm

      Thank you <333

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    Alison
    December 23, 2015 at 2:54 pm

    I LOVE LOVE LOVE this post. You look SO great Becky and work so hard. You inspire me.

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      Becky
      December 28, 2015 at 1:00 pm

      Aw thank you. You’re a sweetheart.

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